Four Leaf Clover

there's no place on earth would shine dawn till nite...sometimes rain would came cross in the noon..


Same does with me n my love...eventhou he just too cute to b prejudise and jealous of me coz I'm far from him...but still he Is my Four Leaf Clover..Ơ̴̴̴̴̴̴͡.̮Ơ̴͡


Browse thru my family...my mom and brother just look alike...its like they are the mirror of each other...
Suprisingly they didn't notice that..infact..they keep ignored it..n keep their EGO and DISRESPECT...

But then,edy told me that he did saw the way I saw them...that's a relief..


I'm more like my DAD when comes to things I want in my life (simple life with medium profit but full of love)


My mum and bro more to MATERIAL type..for them,chasing as much as u can have in the world...a part of me yes...not all of them...

I am DIFFERENT


Dear edy..do realize that I'm DIfferent..
At least special in front of ur eyes..
And located warmly in ur heart...



Xoxo

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Future Planning

Its good to be home..no doubt

But then thinkin of future make me scared a bit

Not coz I'm not up for the challenges ahead..I am prepared for that...

But..

Where shall I start the intro of my future...

This morning,I couldn't find any place to apply job in my field..

How am I supposed to calculate my salary?my expenses?

I got debts each month...

By the other hand..

Edy just think about marriage..
I just hope he realise that he need a car n a house 1st b4 we can get married..

Aku dh xlarat nk idup susah...

Bkn nk kaya..tp biarlah sederhana n ade sumenya..nk bergerak keman2,nk ape2 xsusah...

But if I utter a single words..he would tought that I'm not interested in marrying him...its not about that!ish...

Wish he could understand..I want a very lowprofile life..

I mean it edy...

Please understood,its not a mansion I'm possessing to,its not a sports/magnificient vehicle I'm achieving to..

Just like a few people I know..having lowcost malaysian car,a single storey house,on its own land,with fully furnished kitchen,own small garden with small pond+fountain,and a small pool..

Wish I could say all this..I know u wish to have bmw and all..

But..maintanence?..

If u can manage..its ok..



I'm just not prepare for another miscellanous..



Love u edy,
Xoxo

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The Stick N The Grease

Talking about BFF doesn't fit me much..

For me..all my girlfrens are just great to be my BFF clan..

Nobody is perfect of course..so I defines them as equally as it should be

But when tins goes a bit rough n rockin..I choose to let it be..n goes out freely..

Didn't blame anyone for them,me also change..I seldom meet my frens back then coz I'm not in the condition of can do anytin wif money..that's why

N frankly,they still be there for me..some of them..I'm totally grateful..

Sticky doesn't mean its has to b u all the time..it could be others...

Greasy happens when the glue doesn't fit anymore..n all left is..promises that can't be fullfilled...






I'm on the go
-Xoxo-
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The Same Drama Tagline

I don't know how to explain about this...

From the very beginning of my life startin 2004 is just rumblin,gamblin,frustratin,n devastatin,includin hatin...and all wif 'ing' pronounce

I don't know when will my parents realise that I'm too tired for all this ridiculous stuff..hey I'm already 24th and its already up tp 6years now..why still capturin the same drama tagline?

I hate u,u did this,u did that,I'm better,I'm good,I aint like u,oh god,u such a badass that's why ur in trouble..bla bla bla...

See the punchline?same isn't it..read what I wrote...its happenin for 6years..n I guess its goin to be the same for the next few years maybe?or maybe until I closed my eyes?or until they both closed their eyes?I don't know...

Believe it or not..it happens to be the third person in the actor stage..MY BROTHER..the only one brother I had..he just the same wif mt dad n my mum...24years facing his trouble n wet blanket attitude..just makes me feel dun care about him anymore..I did love him..I know he's bcmin like that bcoz of the attitude of our parents,n plus,my grandma not an exception..

But I tink this way...

God give me brain to think,why can't I use them for myself?rather than tinkin about them..I should love myself more

Sound VERY THE SELFISH kn?

I have to..I dun wana cry no more...everyday I'm strugglin myself just to streghten my heart and said 'my marriage will b better,n I'm gonna be better..



BUT...


WILL I?





I'm on the go
-XOXO-
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Medical Lab Trainee

As a month passed..I'm actually in training at Hospital Tuanku Jaafar Seremban..

Works just fine..mn ade kije xsusah n xde migrain?haha..awal2 dh sakit..kih3...

Being far from edy just give test as much as it has been..but then..he always have been the best in my heart..no doubt

Its not like I've quitt my funlife just becoz of I've belong to sumone..nope..not at all actually..I still make new frens..guys n girls..but then that's all..

Thinkin about past funlife really amaze me and make me smile..but then its just a memory..frens nowadays..too scared to be trust anyway..

Anyway..I'm just happy to be who I am..


XOXO... (•˘⌣˘•)˘ε˘•)
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