Friday, 17 June 2011

Everything But Me

The title explain everything isn't it?

As a daughter and sister,I'm fullfillin everyone quest everyday of my life,I have to do everythin,and I've done it well...

As a lover,I've been there for him so I can make sure he's fine,well sleep,well cared...

Sometimes...I kept askin to myself...I didn't fullfill my quest yet...for me...notin yet...true,2 of them hv been fullfilled...a brand new car and mobile phone..
But then,that was the things I needed..not I desire for...

Keeping for others first...that's what I've doing lately...just a brand new guitar for the last 10 years...I still couldn't have one..coz no one encourage me for it..no one...but me...

Just like the volkswagen beetle I love to have too..no one cares about it...

Wait the minute..that's not all...still lots of items I've desire for myself..but then..I've left it hanging...coz nobody feels to care for me..no one wanna listen to me...no body cares...

I kept my hands and ears laid for them,for their laugh,for their tears,for their pain...

EVERYTHING....BUT ME....




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Thursday, 16 June 2011

Three Musketeers

Ngeee..it was fine friday morning as I get up kissed my pumpkin while he's gettin himself ready for work...

Alonh entered the room as it was his.. (-_-) hahaha..as usual la with half naked attitude..me n pumpkin just laugh...
He soon uttered 'JOM G CAMERON!'

Melopong gak lah mulut aku jap..biar betul..tgk monyet hutan tu dh melompat2 tawaf bilik aku pastu bilik ma nk g cameron,vacation?

Unfortunately,edy will b left behind sbb dia ade kije and kena jaga umah..

Packin stuff for 2 days..and we depart..cheewaaah...

"700 meters..turn left.Continue 38km then exit right..."

Gitulah lebih kurang suara minah GPS abg aku..garmin installed dlm 3rd phone dia nokia N95..haha..

As far as I've known..its been more than 12years since the last time I've been to cameron highland..plus its been 15years I didn't go to such places,the highway,the roads and all...so now..its come back..

Having new highways across kenyir lake really amazed me,the beauty of kenyir damp and lakes view makes me impress for the creator of life..subahannallah..

The road was fine,wider highway,bertar and kurang lubang,still ade coz kawasan lori balak kuar masuk kn...but then its cool.. ┐('⌣'┐) (┌'⌣')┌

Exit from terengganu were kelantan territory..a small hill that divides them on the highway,makes us enterin Gua Musang,Kelantan.

The horror part of kelantan is..hah kau!jalan macam haram!btul2 kuar je sempadan,4WD kami dh terjun lubang,jalan pulak,masyaallah,muat2 dua bijik keta perodua kancil..haaaa...ko pk jelah..tHere's one part yg mmg aku ngn abg aku mmg maki hamun kerajaan kelantan is,tgh2 jalan boleh ade lobang sebesar lori nearby felda aring 3,jln tu olak tul2 tepi gaung ladang sawit..WAAAAAAHHHH!!!

Soon after gua musang,we proceed the journey up on hill to cameron highland (new way between pahang n kelantan)

Entering cameron highland doesn't impress me much,not that too much different from past years I'm here..yet I'm still in love wif da flowers,cactus and fruits..strawberry of course..anyway,arrivin there during school holiday season,really sucks..too many people,too many rubbish..

Still,I've brought few souviners for my love ones... ┐(˘⌣˘)

Stayin one nite at cameron,we travel down hill to ipoh,perak on the next day.
Today our main gamble is to fine LOBSTER...haaaa..giler udang galah betul...from ipoh to sg kerian,akhirnya dptlah sekilo udang galah hidup2...haha..

Habis cerita udang galah,kami teruskn perjalanan ke PENANG...

Kt penang kami xbuat pape just lepak Quenssbay Mall,beli vacuum kt harvey norman and makan steamboat tepi laut..bosan k dtg penang,sbb time tu dh malam...

Out of penang,we stay a nite at diamond hotel,juru,autocity...next morning,we off to 'RopeWalk' in butterworth..we were told that that's the most shoppin heaven in there...hopeless...indah khabar dr rupa..

Shoot off we went to Jeli,acrossing Temenggor damp,the largest damp in malaysia really scarry me..haha...its was 15years ago when my parent use to travel between those roads preparing us for a better future today...memory to cherish..

Soon we arrived at Bukit Bunga..a shoppin heaven for people who don't even cared about brands except PRICE..hehehe..

From bukit bunga we went downroad to Rantau Panjang,here's another heaven for people who love stuff from THAILAND...especially my mom,she will have more than 2 matress per visit to brought home ƪ(˘⌣˘)┐ ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ ┌(˘⌣˘)ʃ

From rantau panjang,its already dawn..soon at 8pm Malaysia time,we arrived at Wakaf Che Yeh,Kota Bharu downtown..haaa kau..igt kelantan xde?ade k..haha cuma pakaiannye of coz lebih kepada thai's and muslim's lah kn..

For edy,he said that placed was bored..haha...just ignored him..he's too towny compared to me.. Peace!..haha

Around 1am in the morning,after having unpleasent mee goreng basah at a stall on way back home,along drive towards Machang and Pasir Putih,straight back to Jerteh and Kemaman.

Around 4.30am,along's phone rang,edy called,shivering,frightenedly tellin that he got goosebumps at our room,sleepin alone of course..he's waitin for us in my car at Geliga Bus Station..

Soon we arrive at edy around 5.30am... ( ‾▿‾)-c<´o`) alaaa..cian dia kena kacau hantu..heee...

That's end of aour short vacation,3 musketeers,without my dad.. (-_-)" haha


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Thursday, 9 June 2011

Flawless...

its killing me..DAMN MAXIS! apehal ko slow sangat ni?lebih teruk dr skuter nenek aku kt kampunglah!ish!

dengan muke selamba aku text en kesayangan "B,tenet slooowwww (T___T)"
"go register P1 Wimax, abg bayarkn monthly"
YEEEEEEEEEHAAAAAAAA!!!!!

Vroooom!!! aku memecut saga ungu ku ke bandar kemaman menuju kedai kek MALTA.Sebaik aku berhenti dpn kedai kek tu,aku angkat2 kening... (o_0)...ni bukan kedai kek kawan lama skola aku dlu tu ke?

haha...a chinese fellow come over wif the package and stuff....tanda itu ini,n now setel...

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oleh kerana new tenet kn?..meh try berfacebooking plak...ngeee...buka fb,page pertama yg terpampang dpn skrin is NEWSFEED a.k.a berita harian..haha...WOOSH!!.."Ain Ashikin in SINGLE"...
:-0 oh my?...biar betull ni?...

laju aku amek hp aku and text ke RAJA king kong aku..."need update on lalat status.."
replied : "true enough,short of stories, shikin dh tawar hati pada Jay...kes lambat stable and push nk kawen cpt"

aku diam trus...

perlahan otak aku mengflasback kejadian few years back in Shah Alam,Sect 13, Taman Tadisma...
it was an awfull night..the biggest fight ever happen between me and Shikin...i've becomed the victim of a group of friends who accidentally trap me to fall in a status of "TREASON" A.K.A "BETRAYAL"
..it was my FUCKING ex idea untuk tgk aku suffer and buat kawan2 aku bencikan aku..pergghhh!!!...
mmg mamat tu berjaya coz aku pun dpt kawan yg agak pukimak at that time laaa...

the most thing i hate her for trusting my ex rather than me who she known for ages...thanx paul..u've light up my nite..(-_-)...

as the end...i'm forcing myself to throw everything out and let everything go away from me...make my own way thou...

until the forgiveness came cross at 2010....4 years after the incident...

its funny when flash back the moment when she say "he's mine","we are happy","we are meant together", "we are getting married" suddenly turned up to be... NOTHING...

aku xpernah doakn ko xbahagia walau aku sgt rs di tikam dr blkg ms gaduh mlm tu...i feel sorry for you... i do....just then shikin,i hope u've decide the best for you...

now...its become 2 of my friends yang dh berkarier mengDUMP boyfren2 mereka...adoi...
reason : unstable,unsecure,tired of waiting...
reflection : loneliness
solution : none taken yet..

hell ya freakin me out...
girls...be strong...

Saturday, 4 June 2011

Crucial Demanding

am i finally become bored of waiting....?

or

become bored for giving too much.....?

or

become bored in receiving too little......?

or

i'm still not ready to become an adult which keep busy with works,family,relationship and all.....?

or

i'm still in need to have fun and regain things i avoid to do previously coz i kept thinking for others first...?



i am all of the above...seriously....
i shud have fun for myself...
i need a true vacation
i;m preparing for that
like it or not
i need it for myself
i'm tired of waiting for you to bring me
and all
you just keep for yourself first...
i aint waiting no more..