Ramadhan 2012

Alhamdulillah..

I'm alive till Ramadhan 2012..thank u Allah..

Butt this Ramadhan will never be the same..
No more sweet daddy's little girl..no more father n daughter's memories to share..no more lighten up oil lamp around the house..no more laughter of his stupid jokes thru out the whole fasting month

Aku redha..

But then I found myself crawling up to stand on my 2 numb feet..not so numb after all...since that day I've come up my pocket money plan..hehe

Its started wif azie's tudungs and a week after that I've came up wif clothings like skirts,blouse n jubah..

But..

I can never make it out at the booth..since the owner of the booth (edy's evil cousin) banned me from doing that with unreliable reason 'takut xmuat booth'...(˘_˘") since when I rent ur booth?I'm always put my stuff in front of ur booth,OUTSIDE on my own stand,plus I gave u whateva komisyen grant from the sale itself..

Edy was right..I shud have listen to him..
She's evil..she never think about people..

Well..after cried a few hours..I spend 2 nights in a rown..not sleep at all..finish up my new strategy.. ONLINE!

FB of course,blogs,and BBM..

So far didn't run like waterfall but its still working..

By the way (xbaik cite buruk org) but this will be pengajaran for all..
The girl who make my 3k sale disappear..Allah granted my pledge..and her money were stolen the night she gone to pick up new stock and it was RM 3K (o_O)'

See how Allah give payback?

I'm glad...(Jahatnya aku)

Next thing I knew..edy's got new project at PetroFab.. (ˆ⌣ˆ)/ yay!

Allah make the road to marriage went well..

Thank u Allah..

For everything.


Syukur..

Xoxo


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What If?

Mom just called him..

He's having a fever..I don't know wether its mild or severe..mom's gonna prepare if she have to bring him home tonight..

What if its severe?..

What if there's another consequences coming up..

I don't know what I'm tinkin..

I felt a bit scared too..
Wish if anythin goes wrong..it will happen here,not there..

Please God..I'm jus being too protective..I love my mom n brother so much..I can't barely seen their tears n blood..I'm sorry..


Xoxo


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Happily Never After

im sorry..my heart's already closed..i just can watch u go..walking throughout the wooden front door..

what am i supposed to say?..im not happy you're not dead yet?
its clearly shown in your eyes..u've never loved me...
you just like the other daddy..
you no longer care about me since im accompany my mother thru thick and thin...

what kind of father are u??


my heart sank..but im not sorry for what ive done to you..
'pandai2 la cr duit sendiri nk tunang nk kawin,buat ape mahal2'

abestu aku ni anak pompuan ko sorang je pun..aku berkorban ape saje utk ko ngn mak aku bersatu..ini balasan ko pada aku..Oh lupa..ko kan bakal menimang anak baru..anak haram yg ko buat tanpa segan silu..

Igt..Allah tu Maha Kaya..aku mungkin anak derhaka..jika Allah benar2 adil..ko akan rasa sakit sepertimana sakitnya hati isteri ko dan anak ko yg ko sakiti selama 10 tahun lamanya...


ill be waiting for that..

for now..

for me..
you already DEAD..


xoxo

The Inception

Orang Kate iblis,syaitan ni ada di mana2..dan di saat manusia dikuasainya..tiada apa yg dpt menghalangnya..melainkan Allah swt..

Aku jahil orangnya..aku byk dendam dan byk putus asa dalam titian hidup aku sehingga ke hari ini..

Dr aku lahir smplah tahun 2003..aku bukan seorg yg mudah mengalah,ape jua cabaran aku sahut..ape saja aku buat,kena marah pun aku xpeduli..
Camping,cycling,sports..aku buat even aku ni bukanlah hebat mana pun,kalah je memanjang..tp aku buat..

Aku terkenal ngn sifat ceria n gila2..muka aku xpenah putus ngn senyum..cuma nakal aku ni bab lelaki..hehe..closed fren sume tahu..can't get long too long..hahahah..ape ntah ayat..

Aku kuat kalo soal solat n bdoa,yassin pun aku baca every week khamis malam jumaat..itu antara ajaran mama aku yg xpenah aku lekang and lawan..

Bak kata org..panas xsampai ke petang..hujan di tengahari..tp dalam life aku,aku rs ni lah ribut La Nina yg pertama dan xpenah berakhir sehingga ke saat ini..

Menjelang SpM...segala2nya musnah..parents bermasalah menjadikan aku bermasalah sampai hari ini..
Bukan sekali dua..tp bekali2..bukan setahun dua..tp bertahun2 lamanya..bukan xpenah aku berusaha..tp akhirnya kecundang dan pengertiannya adalah sama..USAHA yang Sia2..

Dr sejak titik hitam dlm keluarga aku itu..aku makin menjauhi Allah..aku semakin tawar melihat titisan airmata mama hari demi hari..aku menjadi semakin bosan utk berdoa memohon perubahan bila aku dengar ungkapan dan percakapan mama yg saban hari makin merosakkn dirinya..

Ape dosa dia sampai ke tahap ni Allah duga dia?kenapa?dia buat segalanya utk anak2 dia..perkara yg bukan wajib ke atasnya selepas kahwin..dr kecik dia xde ayah,dibesarkn oleh pakcik yg xpenah menyayanginya,berumahtangga dengan lelaki yg gaji hanya cukup makan 2mulut..
Tp dia tabah buat ape saja..dia berusaha utk senang..
Tapi Kenapa tak kau bg dugaan pd perampas ya Allah..
Tu macam auntie Lina yg rampas Unc Hairani tu..dia hidup senang lenang,bini pertama smp kerusi pun beli hutan,manusia jenis ape yg kau bagi kesenangan ya Allah?!

Hancurnya hati aku saban hari melihat manusia2 sebegini tidak mendapat keadilanMu..

Aku mmg jahil..tp mereka xpenah putus mengabdikan diri padaMu..

Berikanlah kebahagiaan pd mereka ya Allah..

Aku bersalah hari ni kerana aku derhaka pada ayah ku sendri..tp tpulanglah dgn cr apa aku akn di adili di akhirat..tetapi adili aku d akhirat sepertimana Mu mengadili mereka2 yg jahat di muka bumi ini di akhirat jua..

Amin..

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Lips Are Sealed

On the 5th day baby arrives home

Papa suddenly arrives home too at the moment me n mama was in the clinic wif baby..

(˘_˘") everytin shattered..mama seboleh2 nk jupe pa..she ran to her frens house..

Notin I cud do..I came home just be normal..even my heart sank..

He didn't ask for mama..
He didn't show the face of happily home for us..

Truth came out as he spoke to my brother the reason he came bck..just ana c his grandchild and ask him to come over to Johor fixin the karaoke system..


(˘_˘") mama ran away like a fugitives..he's at home like don't bother at all...

That day..I've bcome a mother,a sister,an aunt,and a women,drives here and there..run errands..


Preety exhausted thou..


Xoxo


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The New Members

I am in the Labour Waiting Hall..

Hee..

Tepat Jam 2.40pm waktu Malaysia I've received a sms from my brother.. 'Alhamdulillah..Baby Boy'

26-06-2012

Mohd Iman Yusuff finally born in Kemaman Hospital..which not as great as we expect but Thank Allah for everytin..



As a Hamba-Nya..there's always a klise in every cheer we had..

Soon out from Labour Room..my sis in law and her baby was transfered to OnG (Obstectric n Gynae) Ward for observation..

The 1st knock down was when she's almost collapse in the bathroom while changing maternity stuff,its lucky me and my brother was there to hold her up..

She lost her strenght..everyone is terrified seeing those pale blue lips with barely bloodless skin..

Nurses rushed..after few hours..she's back in stable..but still weak..

The next day..was the 2nd knock down..
Baby was revealing jaundice condition..
Blood samples have been took..its 200..
Relieved..

Baby n mommy's come home


Best Yet..I'm glad they all safe and sound at Home Now


Thank U Allah..


Xoxo


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Revenge of The Parsel Tongue

I'm not Harry Potter..mind u! Hehehe..

But the word parseltongue for those who didn't watch the series seriously don't know the meaning of it..No Doubt

Actually its an ability to speak with snake or in other word..'Snake's language'? (˘_˘") bodonya ayat..ahahaha


But true..that's what Harry'a posses of..

In My word..parsel tongue refers to snake of course..people who talk like a snake..Hisssssst..

In malay so called 'lidah biawak'..in my dict..I called it parseltongue.. :p lidah ular..hahahahha

People who are parseltongue cud be any of us..but true enough this parseltongue behavior would tear anyone hearts in its path..sometime deeply inside no more sympathy or mercy..say what u may..parseltongue will shut u away..


Aku penah kena..dgn siapa?xperlu tahu..haha

But..everitin has its own limits..

Even a calm faith of Kung fu can make a mirror to a poisonous snake..

Snake does has weakness thou..

Soon there'll be a list of revenge for the parseltongues...


So mind your tongue paul..


Xoxo



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